Looking Back with Gratitude in My Heart

Facebook sure has a funny way of messing with my emotions. This memory popped up yesterday and man did it take me back to a time of lots of uncertainly, fear, and stress.

It was during this time, three years ago, that I really thought we were going to lose Rayleigh. She was so, so, so sick. In fact, she was in heart failure. I remember holding her before her surgery wondering if it would be my last time to hold alive. We experienced lots of ups and downs and scary moments during the quints NICU stay, but I I have never been so scared in all my life as I was when the medical team came to take Rayleigh back to the cath lab. Walking to the waiting room was tough. Sitting and wondering what they were doing to my baby was agonizing. They gave us an estimated time of how long the procedure would take and when the doctor walked in earlier than expected, I was scared. I didn’t know if that was good news or bad news, thankfully, it was all good news. Rayleigh recovered quickly. The surgery had immediate positive results.
Today she’s a healthy, happy, and thriving little girl.

While all this was happening with Rayleigh, Tessa was back in the NICU at Dallas Children’s Hospital. So I had 2 babies still in the NICU at Baylor, 2 babies in the NICU at Children’s, Brant at Paula’s house in Dallas, and Brady (who was only 2 years old) was back home (3 hours away) with family members. Talk about loosing your mind, I honestly don’t know how I didn’t lose my during that time. I’ve always believed in the power of prayer, but it was during this time, in particular, that I really felt the power of prayer. I was so scared, but prayers and God carried me through.

Tessa had surgery to have a feeding tube placed and was released from the NICU again. Both Gracie and Mia had their surgeries to have their g-tubes placed. After a couple of days recovering, we were able to bring them home. Rayleigh, who originally did the best after birth, was our last baby in the NICU and wouldn’t come home until the end of July. But…we got her home and for that I’m forever grateful!

I look back at these memories with so much gratitude in my heart. God was in control the whole time. He guided us through this experience, putting the right people in the right place to help us when we needed it most.

So, I want to spend today in prayer. Leave me a comment on my blog or Facebook page, text or call me, send me a private message, however you want to contact me, do it. Tell me what you want me to pray for and I’ll start talking to God on your behalf.

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Be blessed,
Michelle

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